There is a smile somewhere - deep down inside all of us that shine's from a happiness within our heart. When that light gets lost, so does the rest of our ing. I hope this mental exercise helps you to find and keep your smile in plain sight so that your family, friends and strangers alike are inspired to notice a difference in the change that takes you outward through 'Self-Realization' Harold J Morales
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DISCLAIMER 1: Every Individual's Treatment Plan is unique unto them. advised to first consult your Physician and/or Attorney before handling similar situations the way that I have. I'm just a simple man... far from ing a scholar or world traveler - what I've written below is just my observation from my own life experience spoken from an opinion I truly lieve in. I offer to share my insights with anyone who is willing to compensate me for the effort. What you take from it - is all up to you. By no means I'm I rediscovering the wheel, just describing it in my own words that may or may not click for others in a manner who happen to find the curiosity to read my stuff and/or apply my ideas, the same way that I have and continue to practice on a daily basis...
My style is edgy, moody, personable, informal and not so much of - what you see is what you get - kind of communicator. I can move from being quiet and withdrawn - to intense and in your face.
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WELCOME TO MY WORLD AS I UNDERSTAND IT
To deny ourselves pleasure is an art form learned through the practice of patience. A discipline taught and handed down by the wisest of thinkers from the beginning of humankind. For some of us this endeavor comes naturally - speaking for myself - it took a tremendous conscious effort and several life bending moments before I could view myself from a higher perspective and embrace the damage I was causing to myself and others around me whom I care(d) for the most... even that wasn't enough to help get me to make better choices or grasp that ever elusive brass ring most of us continue to reach and thrive for in our daily lives. It's like belonging to some kind of an elite tribe, a secret society for those of us that are simply 'gluttons for punishment', subconscious masochist testing our threshold for pain. We follow the path of our past seemingly fantasizing of a perfect future. Living in the present is like unwrapping undeserving gifts on Christmas morning when we're a mere three years old. Making a mess on one of the most sacred of days in the year, impatiently waiting for Aunt Sally to show up and hand over the next perfectly wrapped cliffhanger to feel that rush of mighty endorphins unleashing through our blood stream haphazardly one more selfless time.
Getting a grip on the future is an impossible task without the ability to control the chaotic energy of the present, it's like being the fugitive aired on the infamous program 'Americas Most Wanted' for the very first time, yikes... not much hope in making plans under those daunting circumstances.
The Marshmallow Experiment: In the late 60's there was a test performed on 4-year-olds conducted by Robert Mischel at Stanford University. They were placed into a room and a marshmallow was placed before each one of them. It was explained that if they could last 20 minutes without eating it, they could have two instead of one - they just had to control themselves. Two out of three kids devoured it within the 15 minutes and in follow up studies the kids who didn’t eat it and got two in the end were much more successful in school and life and were said to be the happier. Daniel Goleman, the sociologist that gave the speech said that people who are able to delay their gratification end up being more successful. People who lack this trait are said to need instant gratification and may suffer from poor impulse control. Well - I say unjoin that club and take a peek into my new venture...
How To Overcome 'Immediate Self-Gratification', is a self-help tool and my personal testimonial to a simple formula I discovered while addressing my own afflictions to cocaine/heroin and abuse of alcohol in the mid 80's coerced from a misdiagnosis of ALS and a given life span of just two more years to live. I was 26 at the time, a performance musician chasing my dreams pursuing a career in Hollywood, California. In the mid 90's, I logged onto the Internet for the first time. I was researching neuromuscular diseases... one day out of nowhere surfing the web, a window popped up with a naughty little link that piqued my interest and I clicked on it. All of a sudden I had more curiosity than 'Masters & Johnson' and found myself compiling my own mental version of 'The Kinsey Report', studying human sexual behaviors beyond my wildest dreams... This same formula helped me to curb an appetite for internet porn that wasted blocks of time, logging hundreds of hours admiring the female form. Time lost forever. This invaluable tool or psychological thought process, helped reevaluate my ideas of dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide resurrected by my disease, real diagnosis MMN. A degenerating disability I still can't accept even after 24 years. As if that weren't enough, knowing how to overcome......................................... 'Immediate Self-Gratification' has also guided me through a suffering broken heart when I eventually applied the HTOISG Theory. Unfortunately, I used this resource a little too late to salvage a rather large degree of dignity.
The foundation of this formula is based on Quantum Physics, the ability to in two places at the same time. I'll teach you how to physically in one place and mentally leap your mind into two other places altering the present of your now reality with either a negative or positive outcome. That outcome being your ultimate choice in exercising free-will ............................................................. 'Where there's a Will, there's a Way'. My Father's favorite saying. I can remember the first time I heard him say it like it was yesterday. I had no clue what it meant but I was curious enough to pay close attention every time he said it until one day I finally got it. I was 13 years old - about two week's later I ditched school and took my Dad's pride-n- joy, a styling '69 Cadillac Coupe De Ville out far a little spin teaching myself how to drive. In my healing process remembering these pivotal points throughout my life I realized the power behind our thoughts. It's a fact - in that they ultimately lead us into the direction we choose to think, act and live.
Dream a little Dream - and embrace yourself for that magical carpet ride.
The official definitions for this mind ditty are: Deferred gratification, delayed gratification, or emotional intelligence is the ability of a person to wait for things they want.
I use the following to define these traits throughout this program and all areas of my webspace addressing this subject matter:
HTOISG Theory for, How To Overcome 'Immediate Self-Gratification'................. also, the acronym, FOFP for 'Fight or Flight Plan'.
Trust me... I'm no stranger to achievement nor pain and suffering. I know excess and I know patience, my passage into somewhere in the middle is where I know solace and have found Peace-Of-Mind while being liberated without anyone's scales of justice weighing against me - less my own.
This is not a 12 Step Program or Dr. Drew type of intervention.
I guarantee this formula will work on a plethora of issues from eating disorders, undesirable habits, drug/alcohol afflictions, procrastination issues and changeable behavioral problems of all types when exercised properly in good faith and honest intent. If it works for me, It'll work for a monkey on crack - given the monkey can comprehend the theory behind the past, the present and the self-will evolved mystery involving the future. A deliberate nudge, to all of you, evolutionist debaters.
Treatment centers all over America discourage their clientele by laying out a set of guidelines that threat an imminent demise and teach an alcoholic can't taught to drink responsibly. That marijuana is a gateway drug to a life full of addiction and tragedy or that a person who uses opiates on a daily basis to face the day must be in denial and/or incapable of being productive - lacking any use to themselves or others. Another example of abusing our Constitutional Right to self-medicate.
In my opinion 'Americas War on Drugs' is a cash cow paid by taxpayers to keep a seven decades old 'Lie' in business with the most dangerous, corrupt and greediest of all puppet masters in this vast space of our modern world.
STATS: The US War on Drugs
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Estimated Annual US Drug Deaths
Marijuana: Virtually Zero Documented
Cocaine & Heroin: 10,000
Prescription Drugs: 100,000
Alcohol: 150,000
Tobacco: 450,000
Resource: http://buzzle.com/articles/the-us-war-on-drugs.html
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I gauge afflictions and changeable behavioral patterns by an uncontrollable awareness of chaos in ones daily routine that affects their social and/or professional lifestyle in a damaging way. If you're aware of this chaos you can learn how to control and manage it - hmmm, to return to normal.
I Guarantee - This self-help formula will - Set You Free!
Listen, my life is anything from perfect in the eyes of those with any kind of politically correct type of common sense. I still enjoy cocktails with good company and Google a naked woman online every now and again because I'm just that kind of Man, I've smoked weed for both medicinal and recreational use since I was 12 years old and will continue to partake until I'm given a sound reason not to. I'm a student of mastering the art of moderation vs abstinence and like a master of anything, I realize the knowledge of self-control is King, I respect my range of limitations on any subject matter that's capable of bringing me down to a place I no longer wish to shackled to or experience a moment of risky behavior knowing the pitfalls of being who I am might turn the tables against me all over again in any giving moment of time. The fact of the matter is this. That this is LIFE, I'll stumble again, that's for sure... but I'm armed and ready to battle my way through when it does happen, if I choose to do so. I'm locked and loaded with the power and information to see my way through whatever shifty curve ball that might aimed with precision my way. I refuse to have the right to self-medicate as I see fit taken away from me. I strongly refuse to take another step forward in my life without sharing this information with the masses as I understand it and have experienced it to . Abstinence simply doesn't work for most of the population and for this reason, I'll purposely target those individuals who understand this and seek an alternative approach to getting and staying better, securing control over a lifestyle filled and lived amongst the energy of chaos or better known as... a failed 'US Drug Policy' and unjust 'WAR on DRUGS'.
My Personal Testimonial - I just can't pull myself to understand that with all the intelligent thoughts posted from all walks of life everywhere - that this is still an unanswered issue regarding the 'Legalization of Marijuana'... I am a 50 year old man stricken with a disease named.............. 'Multifocal Motor Neuropathy' who is currently legally prescribed - going on over two years now - to the pain medication Percocet - (120 - 30 mg tabs per month) - to control the pain of my physical and emotional self - falling apart on me. On this medication I am still legally licensed to drive a motor vehicle and pursue my life without the criminal element attached to this prescription medication to the best of my knowledge and abilities.
Let me say this one more time, I have smoked marijuana since the age of 12 both medically and recreationally and will continue to do so until I'm given a reasonable reason not to, which is hIGHLY unlikely. At my age and my current condition, the risk of going to jail over my use of marijuana simply isn't warranted any longer in my opinion. If I had the legal choice, which is what my.......................... 'Constitutional Right' should be... I would choose the option of smoking marijuana in a 'New York Minute' to ease this daily discomfort that is magnified by my disease 'MMN'.
I've decided to take action and re-contribute my efforts to the cause... please revisit my webspace often if you support 'Cannabis Law Reform' for updated information on this ongoing developing task.
I support the 'use' of all mind altering drugs when managed in moderation and w/ responsibility - except of course pharma company pushed psychotropic medications simply because there is a more natural, less dangerous and better way to heal!
iF i'M gOING dOWN - i'M gOING uP iN sMOKE :-]
My Personal Input on American Drug Policy = C-R-A-P = Crazy Radical American Politics. While all the brainiacs are up on Capitol Hill outlining the 'Legal Conditions of Cannabis’… in my not so humble opinion… regarding 'Cannabis Law Reform'.
They should spell out that anyone has the right and/or choice to use or grow Cannabis and that you must use it in as part of your HealthCare - To be licensed to Grow and Harvest it.
They should spell out that there should be NO Monetary Value attached so as to keep out the Criminal Element$ surrounding Cannabis. ( there is enough profit to be made off the manufacturing of Bongs, Pipes, Rolling Papers, Grinders, Vaporizer’s etc… not even beginning to discuss Clothing, Food, Fuel and numerous other uses of the Hemp Product.
Individuals whom are too disabled, the elderly or individuals who just plain want it packaged and sent to them could call upon a Licensed Grower who should be required to setup a portion of their Harvest to supply to these individuals at a small cost, $mall as in reasonable costs to cover Harvesting, Shipping and Handling expenses. That is TAX DEDUCTIBLE.
Insurance Companies required to cover the costs like most other Prescription Medications.
Regarding Age appropriateness. This should be a Parental Rights issue. How many kids out there are on Ritalin or other ADHD drugs… or allowed to take a sip off your nice cold brewski when either you are or you're not looking...
I have similar view points on most other mind altering substances to be shared at another time.
forewarned. You must serious about change if you're going to successful using this formula. This minimal 7 second thought process only works if your determined to focus on the positive outcome and exercise the correct healing target option more times than not over a specific time frame in pursuing and achieving your direct end-result, that ing, making yourself whole again - without the confusion of outside negative influence and circumstance.
Plug: If you're into the study of mental illness and the history of how it's been treated. Maybe you yourself or you have a family member or a friend who is being treated for a mental disorder. I highly recommend 'Mad in America' by Robert Whitaker, it's a very informative, at times an almost unbearable read-through. It has a timeline of 1883 to 2007. Pay close attention to the methods of Moral Treatment practiced in the 1800's, a form of care originating from England and France that had positive results for over 30 years. This all changed when patients became profit and business, political and medical professionals especially - traded their Hippocratic Oath for Mercedes Benz and fancy foot wear, selling their souls to feed the source of an already compromised & demented ego. If your into studying the capacity of the human spirit via film, 'MAN ON A WIRE' is awe-inspiring :-]
When I sat down to outline this project my vision was very clear in that it was going to compact, only three main categories in all, around 3500 words including, 1) an introduction of myself that described a brief history of my experience on the subject matter and where I came from to get to the point of where I'm at, 2) the formula itself and 3) putting it into action over a period of twelve months on one specific issue or behavior in my life that I need or have a desire to change. All under the scrutiny of public eyes falling on my reputation and my belief in this HTOISG Theory. I will apply the formula and document my progress to my web presence in a weekly interactive journal, a score keeper of sorts while presenting and promoting the unlimited power of it's life altering, dedicated use with focused members from all over who will invited to share their own stories and post them up as testimonials as well to whether or not it works for them personally - all the while showcasing and bringing into light the astounding indirect result of resolving other pesky issues in my life through the use of this over looked simple to use -bASIC- little strategy. Ideally, my intent is to establish an alternative, affordable - 'Hip-Piece of Time Tested - Self-Help Literature' that those with the means and wherewithal might find a self-interest to promote and put it into practice within an audience deserving of it's effective nature. At just under 11,000 words - I believe each word to necessary.
On March 10th, 2009. I rolled out of bed with the notion of silent solitude vs suicide - contemplating the value and effort in my Fight or Flight Plan - my personal pet name for the HTOISG Theory. Four months earlier - I had personal and professional setbacks. My health took a downward spiral and I was thinking, I simply had enough of living. I digressed into a hermit like lifestyle and locked myself in silence. I wasn't depressed, I just gave up and journeyed inward, frustrated with disappointment in the quality of my existence and evaluating if I could live my life without effort vs. another round of failure. In my mind I was being realistic, mirroring the true scope of my disability and current situation. But that morning I woke up with a spark, a sign of remission. A feeling that doesn't go unnoticed after 24 years of coping. No longer was I caught up in the struggle of wondering if I had the will power and patience to start all over again and reach for higher ground, so I began outlining this program to share with the masses and started thinking about my future from a perspective I've never tried before.
Life or Death choices are issues we all come to grips with in our lives at some point in time, some of us more often and sooner than later then others, a circumstance I no longer question to realize whether it's normal or not. Hunter S. Thomson let everyone around him know he was going to take his own life, whereas Kurt Cobain shocked the world when he took his final stage left. We will probably never ever know what really happened to Marilyn Monroe on this topic. Someone unknown - somewhere, has just purposely taken his or her own life. Through this instance of an action - someone will mourn the loss, someone might feel it was deserved, someone won't even notice, and someone somewhere will most definitely understand the complicated reason of why. So my life goes on without a care of who notices yet with the hope of completing a purpose that matters to someone, somewhere, or not. You see it doesn't really matter if this venture is a success through the eyes of others. Speaking for myself - it already is... 'ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, bra'
My fascination with the whole idea of 'breaking on through to the other side' began when I was just a child. I thought it a way to rid my anguish with heavenly mental images and bypass the pain of wailing fist's that struck me on a daily basis from a crowded nest, where as over time - I eventually learned to adapt and compete against. I am the second youngest of seven boys - (at some point, all rebels hell-bent on pushing our lives to the edge, brothers to the Nth degree).
That all changed, when I first heard the lyrics 'I can't get no satisfaction' by the Rolling Stones in 1966. The sounds scratched out of my older brothers transistor radio late one night on Portland St. in downtown Phoenix, AZ. I held that small piece of holy ingenuity tightly to my ear, so as not to waken anyone else sleeping in the same room next to me that night. I laid wide awake in anticipation for the DJ to spin that dreamscape like epiphany over again. In that moment I was reborn, that very moment I knew I was going to a 'Rock-N-Rolla'. My mind had been entrained. The connection to that idea I felt was electrifying. Sparking a passion and curiosity I had never felt nor transcended from ever again, until recently. Those words flowed into my heart and the beats pounded rhythmically off my membranes, I felt like the most fricking enlightened six year old kid on the planet.
For thirteen years I studied to a performing musician from the age of thirteen to the age of twenty-six - not once did I find myself afflicted with drugs. It wasn't until after my misdiagnosis that I saw the green light flash me forward into a drug fueled purple haze.
We all have triggers that set us off into erratic behavior or over abundance of some sort. The tricky part is dodging all the outdated misinformation crammed into our vulnerable fractured psyches by the so called experts (at an increasing and alarming failed rate) and raise our voice to demand a solution that eliminates the criminal element in a social system that focuses on individual treatment in an environment that provides long-term positive results, giving proper information and an approach that will work for each individual to reset that trigger back into it's stable and manageable position for a long-term.......... self-healing effect that can utilized for generations to come.
If you yourself are caught up in the struggle of life and death choices, I sincerely urge you to rediscover yourself and look at your situation from a higher perspective. Focusing on the possibilities and what might seem like the impossible. Controlling negative thoughts and getting beyond them is where the real mental work begins and ends. Learning how to let go takes practice, understanding problem solving, and most of all, it takes a ton of patience and quiet yet steady outside support from others whom you can trust unconditionally.
DISCLAIMER 2: Seek out professional help before examining, the 'HTOISG Theory' for yourself.
How To Overcome "Immediate Self-Gratification” is a prelude and insert in the tale ---------------- 'Patience for Asylum' a story more in depth about my life living with MMN from beginning to present. A honest account of myself finding balance walking with one foot in the light and one foot in the dark as I paced back in forth dodging one disastrous misdiagnosis after the next trying to deal with this mind numbing disease. 'Patience for Asylum' visits my insane world of super consciousness also known as mental states of synchronicity that led me to research, study and delve into my history of psyche-ward admissions and the horrendous yet laughable quality of my healthcare in general, both physical and mental, how I embraced the patience and time it takes to fully understand that enormous whisper and euphoric vibration I call my NRPWR.
This read thru isn't about my life but rather a formula, a mental exercise I discovered from past experiences. For myself, a life changing tool. A simple thought process anyone within reason, can access anytime, anywhere, if they choose to take this action and journey to the center of their mind and visit their third eYe as an aid to self-analyses of the negative and/or positive outcome in our critical decision making process. Our 'Pineal Gland', the legendary and mythical 'Fork in the Road' of indecision. Research and Develop it for a life of better understanding the direct or indirect choices we ethier fail to make or better yet, successfully make more times than not...
Well, less words here create more windows of opportunity for future debates and discussions about whether what I write about is realistic or just incoherent imagery made up in my twisted schizoaffective world of misdiagnosis and mistreatment whereas I now know, I've been - iatrogenized.
Everybody has issues... what are yours? Are You In or Out?
ON THE TOPIC OF SUBSTANCE ABUSE
I'm one of those statistics that have went out, acted a fool, got arrested and found myself --------------'Court Ordered' to a substance treatment program, self-admitted to a substance treatment program and/or failed at everything I was taught inside of every treatment center/program I 'Graduated' from.
Why, is the $64,000.00 Question? My answer. Simply because I like to Partake - Because it Heals.
In my humble opinion - The 12 Step Program is as outdated as the - Mozilla Browser Version 1.0
Instead of thinking 'One Day at a Time' - I started thinking 'One Drink at a Time'. - or rather 'Moderation vs. Abstinence', like all the alcohol manufacturers that preach adverts in-front of our Bloodshot-Thirsty-Eyes-Everywhere - RESPONSIBLE
FYI - My Last Arrest Date That Wasn't - Thrown Out-of-Court For False Detainment + Charges - 1994
Tough marijuana laws are driving millions of Americans to a more dangerous mood-altering substance, alcohol. The unintended consequence: violence and thousands of unnecessary deaths. It’s time, therefore, for a serious public debate of the case for marijuana versus alcohol.
That’s the message groups advocating the legalization of marijuana are beginning to press, against a background of shifting attitudes which have already prompted 13 states to relax draconian laws dating back to the 1930s, when the government ended alcohol prohibition and began a determined but futile effort to stamp out marijuana. Click the image - read the full article...
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I offer an honest and affordable program for users from all walks of life to be both entertained and receive gainful knowledge to help them with an alternative and effective approach to dealing with a wide spectrum of changeable behavioral issues. To practice getting a grip on making the positive choice in their decision making process within this chaotic world, some of us drown or thrive in.
I've already explained, I used the same -bASIC- principle to overcome my substance abuse issues, Internet porn curiosity, heartbreak and suicidal tendencies. Have you ever felt lost in the world of a crossword puzzle, knowing yet void of any reasonable solution or native language to find your way out?... I have. How To Overcome.......................... 'Immediate Self-Gratification' is your mental road map to exercise a form of free-will stigmatized by this whole topic of legal self-medication/rec use.
I'm an observational learner, so if you're like me, I'll record monthly messages as I move through -------12 Months of applying the HTOISG formula ridding myself of this painful path of acceptance to my current situation of giving into my limitations and once again, attempt to break down the boundaries that are keeping me weak and immobile. This is my invitation to join me in a communal effort to yourself without prejudgment or dire threats of failure.
Move forward with a keen sense of the power and the glory wrapped around the true values of blind faith, loyalty and the positive consequences of natural law in being honest with others yet much more important, in being honest with yourself to know who you are at the precise moment you ponder the age old quote.............
'Know Thy Self'. To Know Thy Self - The 'Key Principle' of what this 'HTOISG Theory' is all about.
Remember my rant about gluttony? I've either just set myself up for another failure or I've taken a small step forward, maybe two small leap's forward for those of you just like myself, who know of nothing better than to think outside the BOX of nor-MAL-icy.
Are you ready to learn - to get informed and put together your own - Fight or Flight Plan?
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I count him braver who overcomes his desires than he who conquers his enemies;
for the hardest victory is the victory over the self.
- Aristotle -
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